Bad year for me

2008 is really a bad year for me. Everything doesn't seems right. From family to marriage to relationship to work, all are in a mess and all are negative. Got the retrenched news last week, i'm going to be retrenched. this really makes me feel that all the hard work, effort i put in are all rubbish to the company. haizzz..I got to start everything all over again..Sometimes come to think of it, i really have nothing left with me, doesn't have a family, marriage failed, my daughter not with me, even the one i love break off with me, no job, no money, not even a place i call home to stay in..Heaven really is so unfair to me, it gave me something yet took it away from me..

Everything turns out to be bad. I juz wanted to be happy, with my love one, and a stable job, a stable income, to save for my future house, but why heaven juz can't let me have it?? I'm really disappointed in life..

Phoebe's Birthday Party

Sorry, took so long to upload this. Phoebe's birthday party was a success, and thanks to all those who came. Phoebe has officially turned 4 years old. Time flies, Phoebe is going to K1 next year. Here are some of the party pics to share. Phoebe, mummy loves you!!!

Heart breaks again!!!

Today i finally realise that you are right..So miserable then why still want to go on loving..whatever i do, u will never be touched. To you, all these are juz rubbish and i'm juz a nobody, a person who you hope will leave you and never appear before you again..And no matter how she hurt you, how she used you, you are still waiting and longing her return..i'm really stupid and foolish to think that without her, and that i change, you will fall for me again..Everytime i failed the test, you will call & console me, but today becoz you are meeting her, u can even forgot to on back your phone, which means she's still very very very important to you..you never tot that i will sms you to tell you whether i pass or not, all you know is you are with her, everything else does not matter..you love her so much, but does she?? She dun even remembers your birthday..I love you so much, but do u?? You dun even care about my feelings..you know that she's a torn in my heart, yet you only tell me your are having dinner with her before i go for my test..when she's having exam, you say you dun wan her to to feel sad and mess up her exam (tis is so important to you)..But wat about me?? I'm oso having a test, a test which require my full concentration, but does tis happen to be in your mind?? And you can let me feel sad and mess up my test?? why am i juz so not important to you?? you actually dun intend to give her up, then why do you still lie to me that tis torn in my heart has been removed??

I really wish to get you out of my mind, out of my heart..i dun wan to continue feeling heart break, heart ache..its all enough...but why, why cant i juz get you out?? why do i have to love you so much to feel so pain?? i really cant take it anymore....