一个失望的圣诞节

xmas should be warm and happy but my xmas was disappointment. the week before xmas, he ask me wat i wan to eat for a good xmas meal, i told him & we did plan to go and have tis good meal which i'm really looking very forward to it..but who knows everything change when tat woman say she wanted to have a japanese buffet at great world city. he changed his plan and never care about our plan...the day comes, i did went for the buffet with them as he say we will dabao the chilli crab (which i wanted in the 1st place) on sunday..so i happily went to eat with them..sunday comes, its yet another disappointment, she ask him out and of coz he forget all tat he say..if she's so important & he only cares about wat she wans, y still wanted to ask me wat i wanted to eat?? i hate tis kind of feeling....

all tis shows again tat he doesnt care/love me anymore, all the while i'm being stupid & naive to think tat 1 day he will come back and we will be able to stay happily ever after..guess tis is my one sided wishful thinking/dream..its time i really let go everything and stop tolerating myself..its going to be very pain and lots of heartache, & i dun know when the pain will be gone but i guess tis is the only way out now....*sob sob* 

Xmas 2009

time flies. it's going to be christmas again..tis year, although i'm going to have a nice christmas dinner but still can't help worrying about my mum's operation which falls on xmas eve. it's a minor operation on her hand and i got to leave her alone at home when i'm going to my dinner..feeling quite guilty actually..:P but i think she should be alright at home, since it's juz a small operation..most importantly, i'm going to have my xmas hokkaido feast (with crabs, sashimi, sushi, deserts......)...looking forward to it...:P:P

shopping spree day

went for a shopping spree during my super long long weekend, bought so many things, burnt a hole in my pocket. but we r happy...i finally bought myself a coach bag. oso bought skincare products, shoes, a pooh bear for baobei, some clothes..saw a armani jeans for kids, its so nice, had a urge to buy for baobei but after some serious tot, i gave up the idea, coz its super ex....we oso took some pics with the xmas deco tis year at orchard, although its without the lightings but baobei still had great fun posting..here's the pics....

our 1st studio shoot together

2 dec 09, we went for our 1st studio shoot together, although its not my 1st but with my baobei, tats the 1st ever..we had great time and fun during the shoot. luckily baobei still willing to post in front of the camera, maybe its oso her 1st time, so some shoots looks quite stiff. but still its a fun experience for both of us..she's nw asking me when r we gg to take again. hehe..here's some pics to share.......