new job....

it has been a week into my new job, still cant really adjust as i still have a scare feeling but it's not as bad as before. trying to overcome the scare feeling of being alone, hopefully i can deal with it soon. have been telling myself i must make it tis time round, i must keep tis job as i need the money, i must adjust and overcome all difficulties.

as for the place to stay, i will call up hdb to ask about rental, hopefully have it and my burden wont be so big, but last choice is to extend the contract here, with a higher rental, but i got no choice as ti rent a room outside is equally expensive, i rather pay the high rent here to have the freedom and wont affect my daughter, she wont have to adjust again.

hope heaven give me a smooth path tis time, let me have a smooth road ahead......

yet another bad news...

juz got news that the landlord wants to increase the rental amt, and tis amt is wat we cant afford, thus we got to move..problem is how do i get a place to stay?? rent a room - no freedom, no room for phoebe to move around, rent whole unit - i cant afford..my bro says go to stay at his place 1st, but his place is too small for all of us and too far for me, & too far for phoebe to go school...

y must all things happen in 1 go, y heaven is so unfair to me, take away my job, take away my love, now take away my place to stay, does it wan to take my life away too??

rest in peace, dad....

after some many days in the ICU fighting with the disease, his condition havent got any better, doctor says needs to amputate his leg & hand but we disagree, and so we decided to let him go in one piece. after 3 days desicion made, he left us...

it has been a week he left, but still we have to settle the things he left behind (bank, cpf), and prayings to be done...dad, rest in peace, we will miss u.....