Sadness

One month has passed for 2009. Everything wasn't going well. First, got retrenched. Then came the debts. Even the one i love seems to be so far from me. I'm started to feel very very scared. Very scared that there's more unpleasant things to come. I'm scared to lose some more things. I tremble with fear, i lost sleep and even had to cry myself to sleep. My heart beats so fast that it almost jumps out of my mouth. For all the things that happen, it was like so fast. One thing after another, hurts & fears came so fast, without warning. i'm totally lost & scared. i dun know what i should do, which way to go, which plan to follow. Right now, i really wish i could run away from everything & everyone. When will these ever end??